 |
| Credit for this picture goes to: www.iamamothertoanangel.com and www.facebook.com/iamamothertoanangel |
October is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness month!!
In 1988 October was declared Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month in the United States with a Presidential Proclamation from Ronald Reagan. This month is dedicated throughout the world to raising awareness of infant and pregnancy loss and to honor and remember babies and infants who died due to miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal death, SIDS and all infant deaths.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
.gif)
In 1988 October was declared Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month in the United States with a Presidential Proclamation from Ronald Reagan. This month is dedicated throughout the world to raising awareness of infant and pregnancy loss and to honor and remember babies and infants who died due to miscarriage, stillbirth, neonatal death, SIDS and all infant deaths.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The October 15th Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day (PAILRD) Campaign began in 2002 as an American movement started by Robyn Bear, Lisa Brown, and Tammy Novak. Together, they petitioned the federal government, as well as the governors of each of the 50 states, and by October 15, 2002 (the first observance of PAILRD) 20 states had signed proclamations recognizing the date as such.
This special day was created as a way to honor the memory of all the angel children that have been lost, and promote support, education, and awareness of this topic worldwide. A portion of this special day includes participating in the Wave of Light Celebration. It's easy for anyone to participate. Simply light a candle in your home or in a group or gathering at 7:00 p.m. in your time zone. Keep that light burning for at least one hour. If you do, you will become a part of a continuous WAVE OF LIGHT around the globe that will honor all the children that have left this world too soon.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
My Story (written July 16th, 2009):
R.I.P. Jesus Alejandro Giovanni Bauer: The whole story that I can remember of my loss.
On July 14th, 2009 I gave birth to my perfect beautiful son. He was still alive when he came out but I heard them say that his heart stopped as soon as the cord was cut. He lived for 11 minutes from 12:50 pm to 1:01 pm.
I woke up at 5:00 in the morning on July 14th to go to the bathroom. My underwear felt wet and I thought maybe I peed my pants so I played it off. My stomach had a crampy feeling and when I went to wipe I saw the blood everywhere. I called my mom and woke up my boyfriend and we called the ambulance. They came and we rushed to the hospital. As I was in the ambulance the medic said he had 2 cases like this in the past week and that i shouldn't worry cause bleeding doesn't always mean loss.
We got to the hospital and they took me straight to the birth center area. They did an ultrasound and my little boy looked so normal and healthy but I guess my cervix was opened 3cm but I was not dilated. They gave me meds to calm the contractions until they could figure everything out. They also gave me a steroid shot and put me on magnesium and put a catheter in so I could be on bed-rest My little guy was a kicker and I guess they said I had all that cramping cause he was kicking the catheter but the pain was soo unbearable and the magnesium made me burn inside and I kept moving and it hurt so bad! I had the urge to push and i tried not to but I felt something coming out and I guess I went into preterm labor. The next thing I know I feel a gush of fluid burst, my water broke! They rushed me into the delivery room. The doctor said push and I kept pushing and he was out. Then I heard them say his heart stopped and I couldn't stop crying but the doctor said push again and I did. It was all over and I remember the WHOLE DAMN SCARY thing!!! I cant get it out of my mind! It will haunt me forever!
Just earlier that day in the hospital bed he was kicking me but now there are no kicks just an empty pathetic stomach. I cant believe he is actually gone, it feels so unreal since he was just HEALTHY moments before the scary labor period happened!
All my family says he is with God now and I know that. But they also say that God had better plans and needs him up there. Well, I need him here with me! Its just not fair! Why can't I have my perfect baby??? Tell me why God! Why did you have to take my baby from me?
He just looked soo perfect and like he was sleeping and I was just waiting for him to wake up or move around or cry but nothing happened. He was just so lifeless laying there helpless.
I dont think I will ever get over this! I dont wanna eat, I can't sleep without nightmares, I just don't have strength to do anything really. I just want my baby back! I know I will be with him again someday and I will never stop loving him and praying for him EVER! I love him and miss him soo much.
RIP Jesus Alejandro Giovanni. Born July 14th, 2009 at 12:50pm. Died on July 14th, 2009 at 1:01pm. In my tummy for 23 weeks and 1 day and alive for just 11 minutes!
 |
| My beautiful baby boy Jesus! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Here are a few songs that helped me a lot with my loss! |
Glory Baby by Watermark
Held by Natalie Grant
Smallest Wingless by Craig Cardiff
